I am not NICE

     It is always a tough day when you realize that you aren't really.... nice.

     The fact is, I am not hardwired to be "nice." I am hardwired to conquer, to lead, to attack. Now, I am not excusing hurtful, or jerky behavior. But, if you want to be around a nice, safe, comfortable person, I probably ain't him.
     For years, I felt condemned by the "nice church people." Why? I talk about sex and masturbation and homosexuality. I talk about pooping out food that you put on a credit card (and now are paying interest on) as being stupid. I make jokes that poke fun at the establishment. I admit that sometimes, I want to fight.
     This makes "nice" people unsettled. Why? Because they have sex, poop and get angry. But, they think that it isn't "nice" to talk about it.
     And, what is even worse are the times when I question their religion and superstition. (Have you ever wondered why we reach our hands out to people when we pray for them? Are we channeling?)
     This may seem superioristic towards people, but the fact is... I have a problem. I am not NICE! It is ok for me to be me, but I have no right to look down on others who aren't like me. If I don't like them treating me wrongly for being who I am, then I shouldn't treat them wrongly for being who they are. Insert here the words of Jesus about "taking the log out of your own eye first."

      So, to the world I offer this apology: If I haven't treated you nice, then I am sorry. Not being nice is no excuse for not treating people nice. I will try to treat you better, but there is a long way for this boy to go.
      God help us all!